Its been a long time.

It's been a long time I didn't back to here. At first I created this blog is to let me to write some unhappy thing here to release my negative thinking. I back to here again which also means that, I am suffering now again... I start to feel lost and hopeless in my life, in my future life. I don't know what had I done for the past, whats the purpose to do so on my past. And I am thinking what I need to do at current, and what I am looking for in future. Perhaps I need to learn more during my past, not the knowledge for my course, but the extra from noway. I am nothing now, I don't have any hobbies, no talent, no saving, no planning , no future. People told me it is normal when you near 30 years old. But it is also a fact that people need to facing to. Problems arise , somehow need to find a solution to solve it, isn't it. Don't tell me that I just need to wait and see, after 30 then you will clear. For me, the problem it just not being solved. I clearly know that, I need a plan, I need a target, I want my bright future. And I need help also.. By Terry